Missing Spirit
When longing for something, that make me very powerfull to realize. Also make me focus to find many ways to reach it. All of capability, time and resources will sacrifice. For example when I want to own a motorcycle, I dream it’s very cool when I ride it , I can go everywhere, everything looks appearance. Then I talk to my father what I wang, he said, “ I think you aren’t really want yet. You can ride a bicycle....” in this time many children like me same with my ages didn’t want to ride bicycle anymore. I never surrender maybe with a little flattery makes him agree to buy new motorcycle for me. I try to be certain to make him bought me what i want to be. Many agreement will supported to make him surely. Such as : I will study hard and success in school, ready to help mother and brother to everywhere, I will take it in good conditions, keep clean and many other agreement. When he heard that all, we have deals. My father accept that agreement and one condition, I get new motorcycle if i can joint in good school in good mark.
I can conceive and believe it can achieve. I really enthusiat to keep agreement that dealing. That make me focus to reach my dream. I prepare to pass examination in good mark and high rank. First, I draw many subject in time schedule, i have hard work to understood and capable. Then i jon with my friends in study club that can help other find out difficult subject and I keep in healthy also in happy. In spare time i help my mother and brother. I want all of family members will support me to reach my dream. I love everything that i do and enjoy to achieve. I don’t know what happend to me i feel so powerfull , I don’t know where spirit come from.
Now, it’s time, time that always i hope coming soon, I get good school and also motocycle. In first year, i keep my agreement that ever promise. In secon years, one by one the agreemen that’s not doing anymore. I busy with my new community and new activities that spend my time.In third years, many temptations arround me one of them that’s make me really want to modify my motorcycle. I sold a few original spareparts and change the other one after that i want to sold it and change the new one.
My father warn me seriously when know that’s all. All of them cause deep impact to destroy my study. The marks get lower than before and my new hobby waste many time unuseful.It’s very dangerous, he will sold my motorcycle. He is right it can influence to continue my study in university. I don’t know what happend to me I lost my spirit that ever i have when i want to have new motorcycle. Where are my dream, energy, focus reach goals, work hard, good in preparation, enthusiasm, expectations that ever create in my minds.
Now, i lost all of them.